So how are we doing? Well the short answer is we’re doing okay, as good as anyone could expect us to be.
Over the last month since burying Eloise we’ve been going to couples therapy with Heavens Gain Ministries. We took a trip to Las Vegas, have had a couple parents only date nights, and have gotten to spend numerous weekends with Vivienne going to the zoo, museum, play grounds and various other places. We’ve been trying to take the time to be with our little family as it is, even if it’s not how we imagined it.
We’ve planned a trip to Cancun for our 5 year anniversary in July- something we we’re not going to be able to do this summer. We also have plans for a few concerts, shows, and a weekend trip to Nashville with Vivienne.
So what can you do? This is something we’ve been asked over and over and at the time, we had no answer because there just weren’t words yet. Right now, the best thing anyone can do for us is to not treat us differently, speak Eloise’s name in conversation, and try to be comfortable talking about her. She’s still a part of our lives and our family and she always will be. The other thing you can do is keep praying that in time God and Eloise send us a little Miracle. Lastly, don’t feel like you can’t celebrate the happy things with us. Yes, we’re grieving, but that doesn’t mean we aren’t happy for anyone else with happy news.
Staying busy has helped and will probably continue to help keep us going as we keep navigating the grief and pain of Eloise not being with us, especially as we continue down the path in our war with infertility.
We do not yet have all the details as to what happened to our peanut, and we won’t for a while… we will however be taking the information we do have and further investigating with our doctors in the coming weeks. We know at this point we’re going to continue our fight and keep trying to complete our family. That being said we ask for prayers for both health and healing as time is not on our side in this journey.
All in all, we’re hanging in there and we’ll continue to do so. Thus far I think we’re doing an okay job living our lives out loud for Eloise and continuing to share our story. After all, it could become someone else’s survival guide.
Until next time 🧡
Remembering Eloise Estelle 